I Would Never Say No

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMRs61AOduE

Saw an exquisite dance to this song on SYTYCD.  Had forgotten about the song completely.  But, it sure says everything about The One.  Obviously, he is unimaginably happy with her and I am happy for him.  But I still love him more than anything and always will.  No matter that I have gotten worse at my “behavior.”  I would drop it for him, to be with him, to have him love me. 

Take me back in the arms I love
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that you wanted more

Don’t go you know you will break my heart
She won’t love you like I will
I’m the one who’ll stay
When she walks away
And you know I’ll be standing here still

I’ll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I’m the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew
Hold me so you can’t let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know

I’ll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I’m the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we’ll find a way

I’ll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I’m the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

I Need You

Been having a really hard time lately.  Saw someone in line the other day that reminded me of my One.  My heart lurched.  I still wonder when the pain will pass…when I can stop thinking of him in that way.  I ache for him…not just as a lover and soulmate but as a dear friend, the best of friends.  And knowing that I bring absolutely no thought to his mind is devastating.  I am happy for him, I am.  I am just so miserable, too.  This song demonstrates all that aching longing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qk-7n1hdK3M

We used to laugh
We used to cry
We used to bow our heads then
Wonder why

But now you’re gone
I guess I’ll carry on
And make the best of what you’ve left to me
Left to me, left to me

{Refrain
I need you
Like the flower needs the rain
You know I need you
Guess I’ll start it all again
You know I need you
Like the winter needs the spring
You know I need you
I need you

And every day
I’d laugh the hours away
Just knowing you were thinking of me
Then it came
That I was put to blame
For every story told about me
About me, about me

(Refrain, Repeat)

There You Go Making My Heart Beat Again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5iDPw_qjhtM

Unfortunately, I learned of this song when One offered it to his One, so it makes me think of him everytime I hear it…and not necessarily in a good way.  He pulls me right back in, unintentionally, all the time.  And while we don’t have this relationship, it seems to speak to some parts of our “relationship.”  At any rate, I like to think of him, even though it hurts, so I do like to listen to this catchy tune.

“Stuck Like Glue” by Sugarland

MMMM better…MMMM better…
Absolutely no one that knows me better
No one that can make me feel sooo goooood
How did we stay so long together?
When everybody, everybody said we never would
And just when I, I start to think they’re right
That love has died…

[Chorus:]
There you go making my heart beat again,
Heart beat again,
Heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid
Won’t you do it and do it one time?
There you go pulling me right back in,
Right back in,
Right back in
And I know-oo I’m never letting this go-ooo

I’m stuck on you
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we’re stuck like glue
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we’re stuck like glue

Some days I don’t feel like trying
Some days you know I wanna just give up
When it doesn’t matter who’s right, thought about it all night
Had enough
You give me that look
“I’m sorry baby let’s make up”
You do that thing that makes me laugh
And just like that…

[Chorus:]
There you go making my heart beat again,
Heart beat again,
Heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid
Won’t you do it and do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in,
Right back in,
Right back in
And I know-oo I’m never letting this go-ooo

I’m stuck on you
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we’re stuck like glue
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby were stuck like glue

Whutooo Whutoo

You almost stay out, too stuck together from the ATL
Whutooo Whutoo
Feeling kinda sick?
Just a spoon full of sugar make it better real quick

I say
Whutooo Whutoo
Whatcha gonna do with that?
Whutooo Whutoo
Come on over here with that
Sugar sticky sweet stuff
Come on give me that stuff
Everybody wants some
Melodies that get stuck

Up in your head
Whutooo whutooo

Up in your head
Whutooo whutooo

Up in your head
Whutooo whutooo

Up in your head
Whutooo whutooo
Whuthoo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me together, say, it’s all I wanna do
I said

[Chorus:]
There you go making my heart beat again,
Heart beat again,
Heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid
Won’t you do it and do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in,
Right back in,
Right back in
And I know-oo I’m never letting this go-ooo

There you go making my heart beat again,
Heart beat again,
Heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid
Won’t you do it and do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in,
Right back in,
Right back in
And I know-oo I’m never letting this go-ooo
I’m stuck on you

Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we’re stuck like glue
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby were stuck like glue
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we’re stuck like glue

Don’t believe in exceptions….

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-J7J_IWUhls&ob=av2e

I really love this song.  The words are me in so many ways, having thought I found my exception not to long ago, but I realize now that it is just not going to happen.  When you are damaged, there is no getting past it to finding that exception.

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I’d never sing of love if it does not exist.

But darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we’ve got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Or keep a straight face.
And I’ve always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I’ve sworn to myself
that I’m content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I’ve got a tight grip on reality,
but I can’t let go of what’s in front of me here.
I know you’re leaving in the morning
when you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream.

You are the only exception. [x4]

You are the only exception. [x4]

And I’m on my way to believing.
Oh, and I’m on my way to believing.

I Don’t Belong Here

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFkzRNyygfk&ob=av2e

Losing it again.  Wish I could predict the cycle (originally posted in July 2010)

Creep – Radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn’t look you in the eye
You’re just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You’re so fucking special

But I’m a creep
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here

I don’t care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I’m not around
You’re so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I’m a creep
I’m a weirdo
What the hell I’m doing here?
I don’t belong here

She’s running out again
She’s running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You’re so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I’m a creep
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here
I don’t belong here

Off of Love

From the song, All For Love…should have been “Off of Love” 

I fixed the lyrics here =)

All For Love Off of Love Lyrics

Slipping through the hole where the moon don’t shine
Spent too long trying to make you mine
Kept on running but I fell behind
Butterfly better fly away this time

Lost my place in the line again
Put it back on the shelf and let the dust settle in
I always thought we’d that be more than friends
I always thought that we were different

Ohhhhoohh
Ohhhhoohh

I’m all for love off of love
But I can’t see the light
Tell me how to do it
Tell me how I’m gonna get it right
I’m all for love off of love
I’m never gonna try it again
I don’t wanna give up
Cause I’m all for love off of love

Nobody knows where the hell I’ve been
Not gonna make a fool of myself again
Keep on getting stuck up in the same old scene
Baby why’d you have to go and be so mean

Ohhhhoohh
Ohhhhoohh

I’m all for love off of love
But I can’t see the light
Tell me how to do it
Tell me how I’m gonna get it right
I’m all for love off of love
And I’m never trying again
I don’t wanna give up
Cause I’m all for love off of love

I don’t believe in praying on your knees
Just let me leave I’m over the fantasy

I’m all for love off of love
But I can’t see the light
Tell me how to do it
Tell me how I’m gonna get it right
I’m all for love off of love
And I’m never trying again
I don’t wanna give up
I don’t wanna give in
But I can’t see the light
Tell me how to do it
Tell me how I’m gonna get it right
I’m all for love off of love
And I’m never trying again
I don’t wanna give up
Cause I’m all for love off of love

Okay…that’s better 😉

I’d Like to Get Over You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jM2YwhaNCc

Perfect lyrics for my former situation…

Expiration Date – Pomplamoose

Waiting for nothing to start
Its getting late
Why dont we call it a day
I could easily go for a drink
Watching you shrink
This isnt easy to say
But Id like to get over
Id like get over you

Never knew love was a fad
You fooled me bad
Wish you were easy to hate
But Im stuck in the middle for now
Wondering how
I entertain this debate
And Id like to get over
Id like to get over you

Why did you stop
Doing the things you did
To make me fall
When did you start
Framing my dreams
To hang on your white walls

Dinner for two lost its taste
When I embraced
All of your leftover bait
And I wish we had never gone stale
But who could tell
Your expiration date
Oh Id like to get over
Id like to get over you

Why did you stop
Building our little home
The picket fence
When did you start
Complimenting in past
And future tense

Stop
Wandering through my mind
As you once were
Start
Hoping that Ill come back
When youre the last man on earth

I guess that I should have known
Throw the first stone
If you feel perfect today
Oh Id like to get over
Id like to get over you

Winning Over Life

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fn1h3AQk_TQ

Perfect for danze!

Arrasando – Thalia

Arrasando… oye papi dámelo todo
Que sube que baja que no se que pasa
que la condición humana va acabando con la raza
cuando triunfas en la vida va creciendo mas la envidia
vas sintiendo cuando subes que te dan zancadillas
No sabes que los lobos están a tu lado
pues les va de maravilla, la apariencia mas sencilla
nunca faltan los gorrones para ir de reventones
mas cuando los necesitas, no les ves ni los talones
Son tantos los celos que me hacen cosquillas
que si engordo, que si enflaco, que si no tengo costillas,
hoy tengo respuesta a cualquier encuesta
pues yo sigo caminando y también sigo arrasando

Arrasando con la vida
cosechando la alegría
no hay obstáculo que me impida,
disfrutar de un nuevo día
Arrasando con lo bueno
desechando todo lo malo
no hay oscuridad que cubra
esta luz que en mi deslumbra

Parece que somos armas mortales
pues sin miedo mutilamos sentimientos naturales
destrozamos la alegría, acabamos con la vida
sabotajes para el alma, tropezones y apatía
Juzgamos a todos los que encontramos
destrozamos sus creencias y evadimos sus razones
que si es guapo, pues es gay, que si es rico es del cartel
que si es joven y es muy bella la cuchilla estuvo en ella
Estamos entrando a un nuevo milenio
pretendamos concentrarnos en lo que hace nuestro cuerpo
somos jóvenes fuertes y también inteligentes
en el alma ir concentrando lo que el día va arrasando

Arrasando con la vida
cosechando la alegría
no hay obstáculo que me impida,
disfrutar de un nuevo día
Arrasando con lo bueno
desechando todo lo malo
no hay oscuridad que cubra
esta luz que en mi deslumbra

Mirando hacia atrás aprende el legado
de personas que han dejado una huella en el pasado
Einstein, DaVinci, Neruda y la Malinche
los Aztecas y Toltecas y también los Zapotecas
Napoleón conocido como estratega
a Cleopatra no le importa en el amor la entrega
Ghandi, Lutero y Madre Teresa,
aunque pasen muchos años se hablara de su entereza
Lady Diana princesa de corazones,
y una Eva que ha pecado y nos jaló con sus acciones
Luther King, Malcom X, personajes de la fe
que la historia va dejando pa’ que sigan arrasando.

Arrasando con la vida
cosechando la alegría
no hay obstáculo que me impida,
disfrutar de un nuevo día
Arrasando con lo bueno
desechando todo lo malo
no hay oscuridad que cubra
esta luz que en mi deslumbra

Always…No Matter What Happens

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XBF6IV8W-80&ob=av2n

One of those “Let them go and if they come back to you, it was meant to be” kinda songs.

Come Back To Me – David Cook

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you’re becoming someone else
Don’t recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you’re leaving as you look away
I know there’s really nothing left to say
Just know I’m here whenever you need me I’ll wait for you

So I’ll let you go, I’ll set you free
And when you’ve seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time, I won’t go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I’ll keep your things right where you left them
I’ll be here for you

Oh and I’ll let you go, I’ll set your free
And when you’ve seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I’ll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can’t get close if you’re not there
I can’t get inside if there’s no soul there
I can’t face you, I can’t save you
It’s something you’ll have to do

So I’ll let you go, I’ll set you free
And when you’ve seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Come back to me

So I’ll let you go, I’ll set you free
And when you’ve seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I’ll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

You find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me

Accompaniment to the END

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9yZ1uI5yPbY&ob=av3e

Perfect lyrics, perfect song….

I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don’t believe in
‘Cause I got time while she got freedom
‘Cause when a heart breaks, no it don’t breakeven

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that’s gonna put her first
While I’m wide awake she’s no trouble sleeping
‘Cause when a heart breaks, no it don’t breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I’m all choked up and you’re okay

I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
‘Cause she’s moved on while I’m still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don’t breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I’m all choked up and you’re okay

I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces
(One’s still in love while the other one’s leaving)
I’m falling to pieces
(‘Cause when a heart breaks, no it don’t breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I’m tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
‘Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don’t believe in
‘Cause I got time while she got freedom
‘Cause when a heart breaks, no it don’t break
No it don’t break, no it don’t breakeven, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I’m all choked up and you’re okay

I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces
(One’s still in love while the other one’s leaving)
I’m falling to pieces
(‘Cause when a heart breaks, no it don’t breakeven)

Oh, it don’t breakeven, no
Oh, it don’t breakeven, no
Oh, it don’t breakeven, no