Encased in steel, I struggle to keep out the pain. I admit that I have been very successful save one rough day; however, I do miss him excessively. I doubt his assurances of his feelings though I know he felt something. I am grateful for my choice to remain aloof. I know that inevitably pushed him away but at least I am safe albeit alone. I gave myself a permanent reminder of our time together. That is all I will allow myself. No more communication. I will be strong. I am so glad to know that I really can keep my heart closed.